Due to several events and distractions, work on The Active Mind came to a standstill several months ago. It was as if I went dull, the project taken away, dissolved. For the first time since the beginning in 2004, the energy and momentum was completely stopped. And I couldn't seem to find a way back.
I even found at first it difficult to meditate on the film. When I would try, other events quickly invaded my inward screen, demanding my attention. Emotions seemed distant, dull leaving me no choice but to simply get through the day. And that I did, sometimes filling my hours with a hobby, others with just getting through. Now and then I would try to think about the big questions, like should I continue the film or what do I really do to help the world. I had an increasing drive to become relevant, do something that made a difference. Yet, as an idea come to mind, often upon waking in the morning, it would soon fleet away before my head raised from the pillow. So I did what I could, which was often just counting the chimes of the clock or watching the weather.
Then one day, as I again attempted to meditate, I felt a shift in the energy of the planet, and a oneness with that Allness, that warmth radiating from me called Love. As I watched news events, accessing if the film was still relevant, needed, mine to do, I started to hear themes in the anchors' reports. So many reports seemed to identify the creative and powerful energy of thought, only to fall back into our mechanistic thinking. This film still has a role to play.
The Marianne Williamson's quote that starts with "Our greatest fear is not that we are inadequate, but that we are powerful beyond measure" now hangs on my wall. This section is now marked, "Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you." I then realized the film and other creative projects started to disappear because of my reaction to harsh criticism and quick judgments of me, of my abilities and strengths. I started to accept other's limitations that they so willingly shared with me. The price of this was cutting the ties I have spent a lifetime cultivating, connections to the Allness of God, Creation, Infinite Source. In this effort to adopt the opinions of others about me, my body started to experience dysfunction, my mind started to stall and my lips stopped singing or laughing.
This is the theme I heard in the anchors' reports. We all are tempted to make real their stories of lack, fear and oil domination. Which means even those of us who have studied and worked the power of thought haven't integrated our spiritual understanding with our daily societal living. Thus, this film is still relevant and very much needed. It is time for us as a nation, as a human race, to understand that we create this experience. Whether you choose to understand that from the viewpoint that a person with happy frame of mind has a better time of it going through life than the one that only sees and therefore attracts challenging events, or from the viewpoint and understanding "It's all illusions!", it is still true. Science is starting to define this Truth, that the early metaphysicians discovered through their own seeking in the Silence. And when we open ourselves up to the Allness of God, we open ourselves up to all knowledge, all creation, and to our own source of greatness and purpose.
So I restart again, as we all have the chance to do, to become part of The Active Mind.
